The First Unknown

Today, I find out a major direction my life is going to go. Today, my wife gets an ultra-sound to determine the gender of our new baby.

To be totally honest, I relish this moment of ignorance. It's short-lived now... for once I know, I will know forever and the permanence of it will be as banal as knowing whether it is day or night. It will simply be another feature of the life around us.

The more I think about it, I am reminded of J. J. Abrams' lecture at Ted about the "Mystery Box":


For now, for these three hours before the ultra-sound, I don't know which sex my baby is. I can't know. I don't want to know. That's cool.